Somewhere, nowhere, everywhere
Before the rise and fall of everything
When the tilting storm clouds creased their foreheads
And the world felt numb
I searched for meaning in words and phrases
like a dictionary compiler struck blind
I couldn’t see for the eyes in front of me
I couldn’t hear because there were too many sounds
I couldn’t speak because others had spoken already
I felt for each morning
Like a bomb disposal expert with paralysis
I missed you before I knew you
I was younger then yet senile in my emotions
I stumbled uphill and worried about the edge
Because I was always close to it
I sat in a crowd of my own insecurities
that met every week like a Darby and Jaundiced club
I swam out to sea
And worried about the riptide
In the sky the stars were countless
Like a puzzle with too many pieces
So I began to count them on the fingers of every hand
of everyone in the land
with the hope of diamonds
I searched for the gem shaped like you
I talked to you before you joined the conversation
I reached out for the outline of you
I traced your heart in the sand
And waited for the tide to bring you back
You were the shadow on the ground in front of me
When the sun smiled
You were the voice in the back of my mind
That said it will be alright
Even when it wasn’t.
You were in the curve of the Downland
Where valleys rise again in hope
You were living in the spores of the Sussex ash tree
As it spilt into the wind before it died
You were somewhere, nowhere, everywhere
Waiting for me to look in the right place
Inside, outside and beside me.
Roy Stannard 23.11.13
Listen to a live version performed on ‘The Whole Nine Yards’ Thursday 28th November 2013